Chronic Ankle Pain

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Pain you take over my left ankle,

You bring me to tears,

You bring me to anger,

You bring me to depression,

You bring me to Post Traumatic Stress,

You cause flashbacks and nightmares

To come back,

 

I am immediately back to when

I slipped on the ice,

I am immediately back to when

The EMT’s took me to the hospital to

Get my ankle fixed,

Somehow through all of this,

The memories of being taken

To the ER the night I was raped

Is intertwined with me breaking my ankle,

I do not know why or how to explain this,

All I know is that I feel intense pain, sadness,

Anger and depression,

 

I thought that I had healed enough,

I thought that I had let this go,

Obviously that is not the case

Since you keep hurting and bring

Memories to the surface,

 

I am doing my best to deal with this,

But there are times when I just

Want you to stop hurting,

I do not want to remember,

I do not want to feel,

I do not want to talk about what happened

But I know in order for you to stop hurting,

I need to talk about this and allow

The tears to come out.

I know that I need to heal myself

On a deeper level,

 

I want to feel safe,

I want to know that I am safe to

Express what I need to express.

I want my ankle to know that

I will not hurt you in any way,

I want you to know ankle

that I love you and am showing

you compassion,

That I am here to protect you

And help you to heal.

 

 

I want to help you to heal ankle,

I want you to feel safe enough to

Allow the tears to come out,

I want to heal the pain that is deep

Inside of me,

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